He admitted he replaced me for being a whore

ImageI’ve been doing okay strangely with the idea of a separation, even knowing that this usually is the way people ease into divorce.  I’ve felt resigned and settled, which has been a sign that this is a good decision.  The idea of some space, of some time where people aren’t yelling at me and angry and saying hurtful things is frankly a little enticing.

A side effect of my recent realization and remembering that I don’t have to put up with mistreatment is that I am handling mistreatment differently.  I am not owning everything.  I am owning what is mine.  I’m struggling a little not to own some stuff from yesterday’s therapy though.  Hubby made some pretty huge realizations and it was mesmerizing to hear him talk about them.  They stung, but they were true to him and it was nice to hear real realization come out of his mouth.  He wasn’t denying the truth any more.  Continue reading